The long-form archive
Essays.
Psychoanalytic precision.
Noir restraint. Lived experience.
Exile from Ordinary is Chachi Matooch’s long-form literary publication within the larger Obsidian Grit body of work.
From a published essay
The strange thing is I don’t feel like the same man who nearly destroyed himself, yet I don’t fully recognize the man I’m becoming either. I exist somewhere between obituary and introduction. The old life no longer fits. The new one hasn’t finished introducing itself.
Chachi Matooch · Exile from Ordinary
Read “Relentless Seasons”Selected essays
From Exile from Ordinary
The Allure of Oblivion
The craving doesn’t announce itself as desire. It arrives as relief — a quiet fantasy of not having to be present inside a life that feels suffocatingly repetitive.
Exile from OrdinaryI Survived So Long I Forgot to Live
What happens when survival stops being a season and becomes your identity.
Exile from OrdinaryRelentless Seasons
There are seasons of life that announce themselves with fireworks, promotions, weddings, victories. Then there are seasons like this one. Quiet. Relentless. Invisible to everyone except the person living inside them.